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  • INTERNAL AND EXTERNAL DREAMING

    Swan ImageMy dream journal is filled with bits and pieces of dreams from the past week. In one:

    I'm scrolling an i pad screen and my finger sticks to it, lifting the words off like a strip of cellophane. As the many pages of words are peeled from the screen I become concerned that I've created a problem. The i pad transforms into an address book.

    "Old methods of keeping track of things by writing them down are being offered," I'm thinking. I'll be doing that soon... lifting the addresses from my computer and writing them down as orders are placed in my online store. My mind reflects on the paperwork procedures I've been setting up for myself this week. 

    In another dream: I walk into a room with a TV that is vertically scrolling indecipherable snow filled pictures.  I know I need a break from the technical aspects of my current process so I head to a lake where I know I'll find the swan.

    It's a beautiful warm day as I sit in the profoundly trusting energy of the solitary swan who lives here. When she returned from her winter migration last year, her life partner did not return with her. A man who I meet today tells me that she was very shy last year, but has become more comfortable this spring. I feel her strength in going forward alone as she accepts what she meets in every moment and trusts where she has chosen to continue living. This waking dream is one that I feel deeply and relate to. Communing with her brings a softness to my frazzled mind. I immediately surrender into the lessons of this sacred natural interaction.

    What is real? What is illusion? I can only meet these questions with an open heart and the willingness to stay present with the feelings and related thoughts that come to me in each moment as I stay present with the beautiful white form that swims and dips into the shallow waters before us. She revives me and brings a peaceful shift to my energy field. I'm grateful. Now, I feel prepared to re-enter my scheduled activities, thanks to the gentle sharing of a dream with a graceful swan.

  • COMPUTERS IN DREAMS

    A computer link button with the word emotions on it

    This morning I could barely hold onto my dream images. Pulling the covers over my head and returning to my exact sleep  positioning, I focused on the two words that remained in my mind, "download" and  "program".  I closed my eyes and reentered the dream space. Those words that were so vague a moment ago grew into images and a basic storyline that I can now pull from. In the dream:

    I've just finished downloading two programs to my computer. I've installed a button to be able to access those folders. The button is titled EMOTIONS.

    These simple dream snippets can easily slide by, but conscious dreamers understand the importance of those sometimes choppy or fleeting messages. Today, I could feel the urgency to retrieve this dream. The "return to sleep position" re-entry technique was the best method to use. 

    As I look at this dream I immediately remember another dream from many years ago, when I was going through a very challenging divorce. I'm using that older dream as a reality check. I understand that my new dream is related to the issues I was working on then and am still working with. In that older dream:

    I'm aware of a virus in my computer. I'm frightened because it's somehow detrimental to my physical health. A small crew of people are diligently helping me to clear it and I'm crying with profound gratitude that it is being extricated from my computer system.

    At that time I couldn't detach from the negative emotionally generated mental chatter that my dream was telling me would effect my physical health if not cleared out. I was on my way to a dream retreat with Robert Moss and the sacred group of advanced dreamers who would also be meeting with him on what we fondly call Magic Mountain, nestled  in the Adirondacks. Those dreamers on the mountain assisted me in releasing that energy and I'll be forever grateful for that gift of shared dreaming support.

    Today, in the midst of revamping my website and reimagining my future, I'm grateful to know that two new etheric or energetic programs have been downloaded into my physical system that strengthen how I emotionally respond to my present challenges.  The button is installed to be used when necessary.  I'm definitely in charge of that button now.

  • A WAKING DREAM ~ WATER BECOMES SKY

    PhotoA walk by the reservoir near my home is always joyful and magical. The interactions with nature are like an ever changing canvas that continues to present symbols, colors and experiences that speak to me as waking dreams.

    As I take my midday walk along a winding overgrown path, green shoots peer out of the muddy earth. Like them, I am coming back from a long hibernation. Those delicate shoots poking out from under a thick layer of wet leaves are whispering to me. "Have courage," they are saying, "as you are trusting again to make your way into the new days ahead."

    I pause, and feel compelled to pull out my phone, which I have brought along. I don't get the full message until I have passed by this glorious sight, but once I stop and crop my photo I stand there, smiling. The true image of what I was looking at earlier is waiting patiently to be seen with understanding.

    When I rest in the truth of what is before me my body softens. What I saw as earth, water and sky are actually a continuum of energy flow. What I saw as real and what seemed to be ethereal and untouchable are actually one and the same. They are constantly intertwined. Spirit is present. The mystery of our deepest connections to all-that-is reveals itself a tiny bit in this image. As the sky touches the water the water becomes sky. All is available, right here, right now. My day has been altered by this waking dream that stays with me, even now, a few days later.

    Life is filled with waking dream messages waiting to be received. I am deeply committed to asking, listening and watching for them. Then, I honor them by sharing many and being grateful for every one. 

  • OLDER WOMAN ~ NEW RESTAURANT JOB

    An older woman stands in the kitchen of a large restaurant. She places her hand on the counter and slumps into it, looking overwhelmed and exhausted. A voice from outside the frame says "I know, it's hard for an older person to do this job."

    I woke from this dream feeling the overwhelm of the woman. My mind was on overload. After weeks of re-working my website and creating designs for items to place on my new "Store" page, I found myself overwhelmed with the process of trying to get these items prepared and into waiting hands. 

    I honored my dream by taking care of myself. I headed for the beach and took a long soothing walk before returning to the technically challenging process before me.

  • THE AMAZING SOLAR PLEXUS UNWINDING

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             I'm co-leading a workshop for women and it is near the end of this particular class day. I sit on the floor and place my hands on a woman. She responds with a strong pulse in her solar plexus. The growing pulse becomes a vibration that physically pumps a palpable positive energy into this central area of her torso. This is my second time working on her and she's responding so amazingly that I'm astounded. Her chest rolls to the left and the right in a way that seems physicallly impossible. I ask her name, embarrassed that I don't know it by now. Her name is Ann.

              Ann's chest is like a barrel that is twisting to the left and right. She rolls completely out of my hands from the momentum and I keep talking to her, explaining to the class that she is unwinding. She has rolled outside, onto the grass, and the class follows us until she comes to rest at the base of a small tree, then rolls into its lowest branches. In this shaded area she rests and returns to conscious awareness. I'm blown away!  I've never experienced a process of unwinding that is this powerful. 

              "Does anyone have a camera?" I'm asking. "I'd love to photograph this."

              I remind Ann that the last time we worked she also had a solar plexus release that was remarkable. "That release sparked this one," I say.

              I'm so amazed by the power of this session and this hands-on work that I think I should offer the same opportunity for each of the other participants until this workshop is finished. Hopefully, I'll get to most of them.

              When I wake up I feel extremely energized from this dream. I know that a part of me has just experienced an accelerated healing of my own personal power center. I know that it is preparing me for stepping farther out into the world, and also know there will be a time of rest, integration, and adjustment. I honor my dream by sketching this picture of my dreaam character,  lying in the lower branches of the tree. Then, I take a mindful afternoon walk in nature and rest in it's soft green essence.